Right now, heaven’s right here.

Lately, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I have, on occasion, complained.

Grumbled. Belly-ached. Moaned and groaned, fussed and freted, sniveled, whimpered, whined, and yes, repined. I have my reasons.

But not tonight. Not right now. Not with the smell of wood smoke in my hair.

This evening I finally put together my birthday-present-three-months-early fire bowl that I got on sale for $50 at Target (given what my birthday present was last year, I would say the decision to jump the gun was a wise one). This evening, I finally opened up the wee bundle of wood that I picked up at the hardware store, and twisted up some newspaper, and, eventually lighting more matches than I have hairs on my head (I’m fairly certain), managed to build my first fire (ever). This evening, I sat around a small bonfire in my own backyard, under an azure sky, my children funny, my husband charming, and watched the flames and saw how the wind caught the smoke and occasional ash and spun them up and away as the fire chattered and spread, quieted and gathered, my backyard the only place on earth, the only place I might possibly want to be. The children went in, the husband stayed, we chatted of this and that, the World Cup, high school, nicer patio furniture. The sky darkened, the husband put the girl to bed, the fireflies emerged, and I didn’t move, other than to stir my fire, in my fire bowl, in my backyard, ultimately driven in only by the need to put the other child to bed, and the summer-evening chill in my limbs.

My whole house smells of bonfire now — we’ll have to learn to close those back windows, I think — and I do wonder if the neighbors turned on their air-conditioning on this cool night expressly to avoid a similar fate. I may not love the smell on my pillow come morning.

But right now? I’m good.


PS: Please don’t mind the dancing/bike-washing in this clip (…). It’s the only embeddable source I’ve found for the song, which is among my most beloved!

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  1. dmf

     /  July 1, 2010

    good is good, glad you found a lttle peace

  2. oooh!

    I’ve been wanting one of those forever!

    I think I may just end up going to Target after work tonight.

  3. Yeah. That’s what life is for — a fire in the great outdoors with the ones you love.

  4. Karin S.

     /  July 3, 2010

    I love this clip. Can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought of it since first reading this post. Watched it now while having my morning cry; makes me smile in the midst of this troubled time….

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