Emily L. Hauser – In My Head

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For about six years, I wrote about what was in my head, for a paying public. I wrote commentary, about Israel/Palestine, about being a mom, about being a daughter, about abortion and racism and atheism and shoes. Teenaged pregnancy and baby daddies. The Jordan River and the Kindle. And then some. It was quite a range.

This came after many years as a straight-up reporter, followed by a few years as a graduate student. Not everything I wrote got published, but a surprising amount did. Most of it. By a certain standard, I was a successful commentary writer, and I am, at heart, an essayist.

The thing is, in spite of the fact that the public was a “paying” one, it didn’t pay very well. This was the world of newspapers, after all, a world long in the throes of a wasting illness. Then the Great Economic Meltdown of Aught-Eight dovetailed with the Great Folding of Venerable News Institutions, and I realized that trying to place freelance material had shifted from the merely-nearly impossible to the almost-literally impossible. My heart could no longer take it, and in September 2008, I stopped trying.

I kept up with the other work that I’d always done – for other people, who had always paid more than any outlet at which I was able to use my own by-line – but I stopped, utterly and in one fell-swoop, working for myself.

Well, perhaps unsurprisingly, this has been a sizeable loss for me, for such a long list of reasons that I won’t even bother to go into them. But the world of blogging beckons and while I have, in my neo-Luddite fashion, resisted for years, I now realize that I have to try. I’m a writer, and it turns out that writers need to write.

So here I am! I will be writing about what is in my head, about Israel/Palestine, about being a mom, about being a daughter, about abortion and racism and atheism and shoes. And so on. I will try not to force a shape on this effort, but rather let its shape emerge as we go along.

Comments are open and welcomed. When talking to or about anyone else, please be respectful, please be thoughtful, and if you can, please be kind. Funny will earn you extra credit. If I determine that the lines of basic decency have been crossed, I will cut you off at the knees. But no pressure!

UPDATE: To paraphrase The Big Lebowski and borrow from one of my favorite blogs (South Jerusalem), this blog don’t roll on shabbos. So, no posting on Saturdays! And also, mostly, no posting on Sundays, but that’s more flexible. I have been mentioning this on a weekly basis, but that seems silly, doesn’t it? Anyhoo, bottom line: I don’t roll on shabbos. FYI, and all.

Note: A portfolio of my published work can be seen here: http://emilylhauser.wordpress.com I can be reached at elhauser (at) hotmail (dot) com.

8 Comments »

  1. Hi there,

    I finally came over to your blog having seen you mention it a couple of time on TNC. Great job, great layout. I didn’t read your farewell message on Jezebel but I would have loved to. I have rarely gone back since the changes. And now Megan’s gone too. Anyway, good luck to you, see you around on TNC, EllaEsther!

    Comment by Maya — August 22, 2009 @ 4:53 am | Reply

  2. Hiya EllaEster, or should I say Emily!

    I’ve missed you on Jez and when I finally logged in and checked my messages, I realized why. (I’ve obviously reduced my comments on that site since the change.) The new system actually ended up not being that bad, but I completely understand why you left. I’m glad you sent us messages so I can continue to read your insightful comments here! Thanks for letting me know. Your blog is officially bookmarked. :) Glad to hear you’re still around!

    Cheers!

    Comment by taranwanderer — August 18, 2009 @ 11:51 am | Reply

  3. Hey Ella Ester-
    Just found your message in my jezzie profile. i’ve missed you, now I understand why. I’m a fellow wordpress girl, you’re officially bookmarked. we seem to have totally different issues, you can broaden my world, maybe I can do the same for you.
    i never understood the change in the comments. but the memo came when i was at 37 stars and that was kind of a bummer. thanks for standing up to them. i just kind of shrugged my shoulders and gave up on commenting. but man, I love the jezzies. those are some funny ass bitches.

    Comment by Bonita Applebum — August 13, 2009 @ 4:50 pm | Reply

  4. Hi Emily!

    I also used to follow you on Jezebel, and have missed your presence there of late (not that I can really argue with your reasons for leaving). I’m delighted to see that you’ve already begun posting on this site on a regular basis, and I’ll definitely be bookmarking this blog and checking back in.

    Comment by honey_roasted — August 7, 2009 @ 9:56 pm | Reply

  5. I was a follower of yours on Jezebel, and will continue to follow you here.

    Comment by Julia — July 21, 2009 @ 5:24 pm | Reply

  6. I have also been a follower of yours at Jezebel. I am so happy to see that I can find more of your writing here. Thanks for letting me know. I look forward to reading more here.

    Comment by Mya Dyllen — July 21, 2009 @ 2:05 pm | Reply

  7. I have always found your comments at Jezebel to be so insightful, especially the ones concerning Israel/Palestine. I have learned so much from you!

    I too, am a former journalist (and current freelancer of puff pieces for the local rag’s special sections). I actually owned a weekly community newspaper, which I ran for 10 years with a partner (my ex-husband) before we took on a new “silent” partner who turned out not to be so silent, driving both of us to up and quit one day in 2005. It was a good paper, that we created, that won NYPA awards. We were a real part of our community, which I sometimes miss as much as writing.

    So I know what you mean about your sizeable loss. I now work 40 hours a week crunching numbers and writing in “cop speak” and I swear it’s made me dumber (you would not BELIEVE the horrific typos I encounter on a daily basis; I have literally had to shutdown my brain’s Edit Function). Thank goodness for the freelance work, as it at least forces me to write. I also started a blog, just to keep my chops up. It’s not very serious and is probably a little too ranty, but I guess I’m mostly doing it for myself as I have virtually no readers, am self-labeled as a “mature” blog (I like to drop the f-bomb when I’m ranting), and I haven’t done much at all to promote it, even among my friends. Weird for someone who made living writing, huh?

    I have babbled long enough. I will bookmark you and I look forward to reading your work!

    Comment by La Chica Lucy — July 10, 2009 @ 6:08 pm | Reply

  8. Fantastic. I will bookmark you and check back periodically for insightful words.

    Comment by Donna Rowsell — June 29, 2009 @ 5:29 pm | Reply


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